~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, Jul. 05, 2009 - 11:29 p.m.]
= arcade!! :) =
wheee~ Been so long since I last stepped into an arcade. =P
But we reallie had soooooo much fun laughing, squinting, spotting the difference for photo hunt! 6 pairs of eyes & 3 pairs of hands make a difference, heeZ.
And not forgetting the all-time favourite bishi bashi where we got our hands red for slamming so energetically on the red-green-blue buttons! hahZ. (And of cos slamming at the buttons haphazardly when we simply couldn't understand the instructions. heeZ.)
And something new we attempted -- the drums were soooooo much fun -- beating to the rhythm (even though we couldn't hear the music at all)! =P
And the aftereffect - a little hoarse from all the laughing. -_-" (And seriously, a bad time to be trying to get hoarse)
Arcade (even more hi-tech than our times)! :)
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Thursday, Jul. 02, 2009 - 8:03 p.m.]
= bjbs jljs. =
YYC shortform-ed code word sounds reallie mystical. hahZ. =P
YYC remember woahZ, Saturday, bjbs, jljs! hahZ.
This is called -- solely derived due to laziness at typing smses word by word. =P
We should have a YYC-lingo dictionary someday. =P
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Tuesday, Jun. 30, 2009 - 8:31 p.m.]
= Bemused. =
We were 10% through a briefing, when the speaker suddenly directed attention to me and said,
"Oh.. It's ok if you cannot understand (Eng), the CL teacher will explain it to you later."
My friend turned instantly and gave me a "huhZ!?!" quizzical look.
I went, "Uh huh.. Ok." in reponse to the speaker's concern & remark.
(Thought went through my mind - oopZ. was I unconsciously displaying a blur, confused & blank look even though I wasn't confused?)
And after the whole briefing was over, another friend said, "I almost died trying to contain my laughter when the speaker told you that!"
hahZ. Well, not the first and never will be the last time this will happen. =P
We seemed a bunch of... random people thrown together... and waiting.
Nothing bad from that. hahZ. We built our humour upon that.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Saturday, Jun. 27, 2009 - 8:37 p.m.]
= Mathematics. =
This is abrupt, but I realized at that very moment the speaker demonstrated "verbalizing thoughts" with an Indices question, I really do miss Mathematics alot.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Thursday, Jun. 25, 2009 - 10:27 p.m.]
= Random2. =
In quite a hurry (but feel like saying something), so just typing whatever that comes to my mind. Hope there's no serious typo!
1. Was silently reminding myself in my mind "button", "button", "button" repeatedly. When I thought I've planted the thought in my mind, my mind wandered off to "Breakfast at Tiffany" somehow. Then while I was thinking both "Breakfast at Tiffany" and rehearsing what I wanted to remember just now, I realized I was repeating --> Button. Breakfast at Tiffany. Butter. Breakfast at Tiffany. Butter. ehZ? Butter?
hahZ. The power of the mind to organize and link similar items together. The power of association.
2. I was pretty positive I saw 1 just now. Very. The just one glance, and I saw 1 drove past. The characteristic specs. omg. Uncontrollable urge to send an sms.
3. Should I buy the Breakfast at Tiffany DVD? Oh manZ. I don't know when's the fair till!!
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Wednesday, Jun. 24, 2009 - 7:16 p.m.]
= Random. =
1. I wasn't the only one who kenna attitude at Srgn brdway. So much for their fantastic service.
2. Kept meeting really random people whom I don't think I will ever meet recently - Alice at Paya Lebar, ks on train to Sembawang, jix at J8, jj in school, wl at J8, jess & edith at J8, small uncle & family at J8..
3. Thank goodness for the lucky stars for today! Entering the correct LT, & on the bus - met yh - who enlightened me that I misread the information regarding tml's location!! Makes a total world of difference!! pulau island v.s. town woahZ!
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Tuesday, Jun. 23, 2009 - 4:30 p.m.]
= Blessed. =
When I checked the posting results, it was kind of "oookkayy".
But after I checked the street directory, it's really a blessing in disguise, because I got everything (ok, mostly) I hoped for.
Whatever happens, happens for a reason. :)
[& on a little religious note, karma and "prayers" are not to be belittled. :) Thank you.]
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, Jun. 21, 2009 - 4:33 p.m.]
= seiyuu. =
Attempting a little entertainment just now.
So I went ahead and tried the anime characters' seiyuu quiz online, hahZ.
And well, I knew I had no chance at female seiyuu's voices at all cos I don't ever take notice of them. Or rather, coincidentally, anime I watched seldom have that many female characters. hahZ.
And yeah~ I recognized Morikawa Toshiyuki's voice right spot on (and even with the fact that the clip chosen wasn't from an anime that I've watched before, hahZ). =P
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Thursday, Jun. 18, 2009 - 10:50 p.m.]
= o_O =
ehhhZ? There's something like that?!? was the first thought that came to my mind. Thereafter, it sounds vaguely familiar, just like something I would have written. was my second thought.
Plowing through electronic data from a year ago (yes, my memory is bad enough that biological memory is malfunctioning), I found it. Well, I expect that's with greater ease as compared to someone who isn't me (presuming someone else set out on the same task to plow through the data to find that familiar thing mentioned above).
But it's scary that others remember what I've written, far better than myself. o_O
Selective amnesia?
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Wednesday, Jun. 17, 2009 - 2:42 p.m.]
= Prototypes. =
It struck me today as to how people can be taken by surprise so easily by something not within their expectations, or in the normal frame of things/sequence.
I just picked up 2 phonecalls on behalf of my ma on her handphone. Well, during timings where she will be at work, and her being only person who has access to her own phone.
Coincidentally, the 2 phonecalls I picked up were from our family members. And their respective response were -
1: Hello.
me: Hello.
1(slightly confused): Hello?
me: Hello. It's me larZ..
1: EhhhhZ? Why is it you? Why are you answering her phone?? (At least 1 didn't think that she dialled the wrong number to my phone instead, hahZ)
me: - explanation -
1: Ohhh.
2: Hello.
me: Hello.
2: - pause - Ohh. She's at home?
hahahZ~ 2 responded faster in a sense.
As expected. hahahZ.
And on other occasions, where I was having meals with friends at coffee shops which solely served vegetarian food, there are peddlers going around selling tissue, with the ever-so-familiar phrase of "Please take pity on me."
Well, another time, a 50+ skinny tanned guy was peddling tissues. We didn't want to further elaborate on why we didn't want to buy the tissues, and we looked away. But then, in angst of not receiving money from us, he then said, "Wah. So dao! Being Buddhists and still acting in such a manner. Your Buddhists should be more charitable de mah!" (in Mandarin)
Like ...?!?!
Firstly, having vegetarian food, being a vegetarian doesn't even mean one is a Buddhist. It's not simply about the religion or choice of food, but the underlying compassion etc that come with not consuming meats of all sorts. (Well, not in any position to comment about being a vegetarian. It's complicated. That's just a general explanation.)
Secondly, being at that particular coffee shop (which was in the heart of many Buddhist centres in that area), it doesn't say anything about being a Buddhist. Anyone could simply be just a resident in that area, or even a member of other religions who just happened to be a vegetarian. Or, just happened to have a coffee in that coffee shop.
Thirdly, I guess some extremely healthy looking peddlers could try and get some jobs. He doesn't look as pitiful as he portrayed to be incapable of working. (Again, I'm indeed presuming he's healthy.)
But anyway. Point said, and knowing the need that I gotta lessen my personal tendency to normalize or stereotype or fit things into prototype as though they were the norm. Sometimes things just weren't. Gotta take extra care on that, and jump less to conclusions, especially unconclusive biased judgements.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Monday, Jun. 15, 2009 - 10:39 p.m.]
= Eventful day. =
An eventful day.
One of the rare days I go popping in and out of house. And an half island tour.
Lessons > Back Home 1 > Went out again to buy lunch for family > Back Home 2 > destination: Srgn Brdway (& kenna
attitude) > Back Home 3 to drop off the gown > destination: Sembawang + 'eventful unexpected meeting' with mkting proj mate & alighting at the same station > destination: The Adelphi@City Hall > Dinner > Junction 8 + another 'eventful unexpected meeting' with a hall mate > Back Home 4 (finally)
Alright. And with lots of other random stuff -- such as smsing/calling people (again, I'm sure they're all sick of receiving my message or call. sighZ) for the magazine, clearing my hp inbox, aliasing for tml, catching up with a friend on the phone etc.. hahZ.
Little things, but they add up to a lot. =)
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, Jun. 07, 2009 - 10:56 a.m.]
= Thanks for the memories - Cecelia Ahern. =
I liked her touch on those little simple things in life, and how she had them on paper.
Her delicate touch at crafting relationship between families, father-daughter, friends etc are really worth a read.
And well, her novels more or less lead you to wish for a good ending, I'll be in for a great surprise (in future) if any of her other novels led to a less-than-perfect ending. hahZ.
Anyway --
"How, in my darkest moments, my most fearful times, when faced, became my bravest. When feeling at your weakest you end up showing more strength, when at your lowest are suddenly lifted above higher than you've ever been. They all border one another, those opposites, and how quickly we can be altered. Despair can be altered by one simple smile offered by a stranger; confidence can become fear by the arrival of one uneasy presence. Just as Kate's son had wavered on the balance beam and in an instant his excitement had turned to pain. Everything is on the verge, always brimming the surface, a slight shake, a tremble sends things toppling. How similar emotions are." ~ Joyce,
Thanks for the memories, P316.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Tuesday, May. 26, 2009 - 11:29 p.m.]
= Angels and Demons. =
Angels and Demons was great. :)
Just realized I hadn't blogged about it. Not that it didn't matter, the memory of it got a little jumbled, somewhat.
Had wanted to catch this movie, but I just didn't have the energy lately to jio like-minders for this movie. And neither it's a die-die-must-watch-movie that'll inspire me to catch this movie alone. hahZ. But anyway, was glad I managed to catch this movie last night, impromptu once more.
Exquisite plot, with a lovely twist. And also, it triggered several thoughts in me with the amazing dialogue weaved into the entire movie, well delivered by great actors such as Tom Hanks & Ewan McGregor. :)
And of course, all the fabulous architecture and exquisite sculptures are really like eye candies for me! hahZ~ :)
yepZ. I should really get my hands on his 2 books (Da Vinci Code & Angels nd Demons) one of these days! Before all the chaos start, hurhur.
Symbolic symbologist ehZ, under which camp may I ask?
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Tuesday, May. 26, 2009 - 3:06 p.m.]
= depressing. =
manZ. It's depressing.
I wonder anything good is coming out from it.
Sometimes you simply say "care less" about it. But that's how others perceive your worth.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Tuesday, May. 26, 2009 - 12:17 a.m.]
= Unrest. =
When she checked her phone at 11.05pm, her heart sank to the deepest of abyss. After 2 hours of not checking her phone in the theatre, she was devastated to see 2 icons, the 2 that she doesn't want to see the most, lodged on her phone screen.
That wasn't an understatement. She could feel the exhilaration of having just caught a great movie going down the drain that very moment.
One missed call and
one unread message.
Perhaps she was expecting it, again. Or, she was hoping not to see any icons of sorts on her phone screen at all. In any case, she still have to face the music.
The music that she has long since forgotten for a few years, but building up incessantly over the past few months. The music that almost ceased in that 4 carefree months, that she felt her soul set free, unbounded and unleashed, to her fullest potential and drive. When and where she felt immensely alive.
With resignation as do all birds do when they have to return to the ground to rest their feet, she pressed the Open button gingerly, and prepared her tone reserved for such unwanted situations.
To her relief,
(1) They weren't from whom she was expecting;
(2) Both of them brought relatively good/unexpected news (depending on your perspective).
She thought her ordeal and emotions gone roller-coasting has come to an end. However, all because falling short of her expectations, she started to ponder why she didn't receive those messages from them.
That's the problem with humans: they worry about things that happened, things that are happening, and things that hadn't happened.
And all the more uneasy she felt.
Then, when she braced herself for any expected calls on the way home, never did she receive one.
This made her worried. She
doesn't want to push open the door to a well-lit living room and to a pair of tired eyes gazing at the computer, but not in actual fact using the computer for work. Neither does she want to push open the door to a darkened living room, followed by the sound of another door opening and a tired voice upon the clicking of the closed door behind her.
She knew enough about control and respect, well within the boundaries. If not, how had she survived well and fine through those years? A reminder would be sufficient. Keep it at that. Excessive and unnecessary reminders are like excess sugar in coffee, the sour after taste that lingers on your taste buds and infiltrate your mind even if you weren't consciously remembering it. Excessive reminders adds to the dread, very much like how aversive conditioning works for most humans.
It's not as though everything are deliberate attempts. Who would on earth, in a right frame of mind, to challenge something unnecessary? Or rebel without a cause?
Futile, and senseless.
She has felt pretty much caged in unconsciously in certain choices and decisions that she had made in the past. Now, it's all unleashed because she suddenly feels the music creeping in back gently. Gently as it is, it adds too much to her unease. It makes her sick from inside. She valued absolute silence at certain times. Because that is when, that is really her, dwelling in the golden solitude.
Perhaps in that 4 months, in the right circumstances, she felt as though she had thrown away all forms of thinking-for-others, thinking-of-others, thinking-about-others all because that's what should be done. No matter it's in the streets or in her room, she could get away without feeling apologetic for things she
used to apologize for, because
it-feels-right-to-apologize.
Sorry, as she knocked into a pedestrian, even though it wasn't on purpose. Things like that need not happen. And she won't expect that in return as well, it's mutual, and she's perfectly fine with it, as long as it wasn't done on purpose by the other party.
That's stupid. Or selfish.
Perhaps that's how it really is. Perhaps she had been like that ever since she was born. She has assimilated, but re-integrated with a greater ease elsewhere after having had found her other self. It's hard getting back into the assimilation process.
Despite all that, never did she realize, the music has always been humming softly and consistently in the background.
They were her life. The music that nurtures her soul. Music that goes on for life.
Yet she doesn't always see it that way. She wants enough to be enough.
She wants to sing in unison, and not remain as an apathetic listener solely. Isn't music best enjoyed by 2 mutual parties - the composer and the listener? Or as do many things in life - the writer and the reader, the actors and the viewers..? The complete circle, isn't that how it should be?
The composers knew. They had already knew this from their heart. But it's time for them to listen. To listen to the feedback from their listener.
. . .
As she glanced up, the light stays awake for her return, as it has always been, forever.
From the bottom of her heart, she appreciates it, and always will.
A bird in the hand is a certainty, but a bird in the bush may sing. ~ Bret Harte
Daughters - John Mayer
1.53 a.m.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Wednesday, May. 20, 2009 - 5:26 p.m.]
= awed!! =
I'm surprised!!! He replied my thank-you for the "just-for-me" (全部はもうそうです) mail!!!
とにかく，ありがとうございます~ :)
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Monday, May. 18, 2009 - 8:51 p.m.]
= Raining. - 9/11/08 =
"How long has it been raining?"
Since eternity. He gestures.
That wasn't a lie, she realized. Passing through lives, all the tears shed -- for love, loss, happiness, sadness...
The never ending stream of tears, isn't there any way to stop it?
You can't. He signs slowly, as though burdened by this heavy thought.
She was startled. She wasn't prepared that he could read her thoughts so readily. It has been so long ever since anyone had really connected with her, heart to heart. Gratitude, happiness filled her heart.
And in response, he smiled awkwardly at her unspoken gush of emotions, undetectable from her emotionless face.
She tried to move her facial muscles. It's been so long that she had wanted to display her emotions. Her hardened facial features, is like that of a clay mask. Even the rivulets of occasional tears left marks streaming from her eyes, making her face seemed even much more like a parched desert.
He wanted to tell her to stop searching. If what's she is desperately searching for didn't want to be found, even if it is right in front of her, she wouldn't be able to recognize it.
Stop being so persistent.
She was startled again. A phrase all too familiar.
You wanted it to stop, didn't you?
"I only wanted to find what I want to find. Clarify whatever that is to be clarified, and end it... conclusively." Her heart crumbled after finishing this difficult speech. Of all people, this stranger saw her pain, her tiredness.
I am here... Since we've met, it's time to part. You've found me numerous times. Countless times. You've forsaken my advice each and every time. As many times as we've met... You...
And with that, he left.
Written on 09/11/2008
That was something I've written months ago, and came across it while I was (STILL) packing my room that's filled to the brim. Well, something I couldn't have came up with in this current frame of mind.
And on 2 different occasions that I've read this, I've added more lines to the ending -- (well, the additions seemed kind of redundant)
Added on 21/2/09
"Who... are you?" She muttered after a few seconds, as she gazed upon his retreating back disappearing at the horizon.
Addded on 23/3/09
This familiar stranger, whom she has met for many lives. Never once realizing, she lost what she should have found at that instant where she found what she's been searching for.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Monday, May. 18, 2009 - 8:30 p.m.]
= Unerased Memories. =
A little realization: It's amazing how one managed to keep certain spatial information intact after about a year of not visiting that place (providing that the spatial arrangement of that place didn't change).
Seriously.
Was totally amazed and caught off guard that one is able to name various landmarks (at different locations) when the bus that one's on whizzed past in full speed.
And a point to note, one NEVER once took the bus in that area before. One took by the foot, or the train. And neither did one visit those places frequently enough to make those memories seemed like an automatic reflex of the mind & body.
How deeply etched were these memories of those landmarks (not prominent, but stand out from the surrounding) in the mind?? One couldn't explicitly remember having had put the whole heart to distinctly remember those landmarks at all.
Perhaps, some memories were meant to stay, no matter how brief & momentary the experience was.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, May. 17, 2009 - 1:32 a.m.]
= Hall-less, more or less so. =
Hall-less left me with less sleep than ever. Less sufficient sleep. Less regulated life. Less time for things. Less solitary times. Less self discipline. Less freedom. blah blah blah.
okieZ. Enough, I should know better and shall dwell less on the less side.
So, I've more family time, more interaction, more spatial movement in a house as compared to confinement within mere 4 walls, more unnecessary reminders, more "music" to the ears, more tea breaks, more coffee, more uninvited control reins...
Wait, stop, that sounded wrong..
more uninvited control reins, more tea breaks, more coffee...????
Weren't these what's supposed to be the less the better??
Who says more is always good?
bahZ. Nevermind, if you understood what I meant, I guess you get the gist of things.
Sometimes, we do all need a little uninvited mess to our lives, to realize what's missing, and to re-prioritize needs & wants & to fight for it.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Saturday, May. 16, 2009 - 5:36 p.m.]
= A Spot of Bother - Mark Haddon =
Really enjoyable read! :)
And I love the way he writes -- pretty, humourous & lively -- not of great things, but things happening in everyday life. :)
P352
A train of thought came to a crescendo as he entered the kitchen where, fittingly, Eileen and Ronnie were eating breakfast. At which point he felt Tony beside him, in spirit if not in body, and Jamie realized that whatever Eileen and Ronnie might think (that he needed saving, or castrating, or putting behind bars), deep down they were petrified of him. Which made him feel a bit like Batman, who looked evil, though he was actually good.
So he said, "Hullo Eileen. Hullo Ronnie," and gave them a broad smile. "I hope you slept well."
Then he patted them both on the shoulder and spun round, and the air in the kitchen filled with his black cloak and he swept majestically across the dining room in his matching leather boots and codpiece...
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Friday, May. 15, 2009 - 10:31 a.m.]
= completed~ =
I've completed my Harry Potter series!! yayZ~
And with the exact book cover illustration that I wanted!! :) (except for those 2 books that were my birthday presents)
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Saturday, May. 09, 2009 - 1:10 a.m.]
= Not prepared. =
Not prepared at all.
Not prepared for alot of things.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Friday, May. 08, 2009 - 9:53 a.m.]
= Legendary Tiger Striped Bag!! =
*beamZ*
Finally! I'm glad I didn't buy a leopard print bag as a substitute then. =P
And lo and behold, my tiger collection!!!! =P heeZ.
And my 21-year-old Yiren~ :)
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Monday, May. 04, 2009 - 3:36 p.m.]
= a little summary.. =
You get some, and you lose some.
I thought I would have completed my Harry Potter Collection this time round.
Alas, now I realized I lack the fifth volume - Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
Never mind, a little loss among the other big losses.
And I've gotten more than I've bargained for. Books and books and books!!! wheeee~ :)
And the legendary tiger striped bag!! wahahZ~ :)
Yeah.. and I've learnt alot on this trip. The little things, the big things.
And yes, the little note of caution he threw nonchalantly to the wind meant alot. ALOT. manZ. This is totally amazing how he could see through that many layers of things, predicting and foreshadowing things, or validating things.
And of cos.. FUN with YYC~ :)
hahZ~ moonwalk.. penguin walk.. small bag in big bag.. room in room.. extension.. stairs after stairs.. sit-down-culture.. can ku de ai..
hahahZ~ =P
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, Apr. 26, 2009 - 12:25 a.m.]
= Tuesday with Morrie - revisited IV =
P177
"Mitch, I know it hurts when you can't be with someone you love. But you need to be at peace with his desires. Maybe he doesn't want you interrupting your life. Maybe he can't deal with the extra burden. I tell everyone I know to carry on with the life they know -- don't ruin it because I am dying."
But he's my brother, I said.
"I know," Morrie said. "That's why it hurts."
I saw Peter in my mind when he was eight years old, his curly blond hair puffed into a sweaty ball atop his head. I saw us wrestling in the yard next to our house, the grass stains soaking through the knees of our jeans. I saw him singing songs in front of the mirror, holding a brush as a microphone, and I saw us squeezing into the attic where we hid together as children, testing our parents' will to find us for dinner.
And then I saw him as the adult who hd drifted away, thin and frail, his face bony from the chemotherapy treatments.
Morrie, I said. Why doesn't he want to see me?
My old professor sighed. "There is no formula to relationships. They have to be negotiated in loving ways, with room for both parties, what they want and what they need, what they can do and what their life is like.
"In business, people negotiate to win. They negotiate to get what they want. Maybe you're too used to that. Love is different. Love is when you are as concerned about someone else's situation as you are about your own.
"You've had these special times with your brother, and you no longer have what you had with him. You want them back. You never want them to stop. But that's part of being human. Stop, renew, stop, renew."
I looked at him. I saw all the death in the world. I felt helpless.
"You'll find a way back to your brother," Morrie said.
How do you know?
Morrie smiled. "You found me, didn't you?"
If only..
And suddenly I understood the pulling in different directions..
For your own good v.s. What you really wanted.
You understand, but sometimes it seems as though you don't really understand. And then you tried to pull away. You tried to run away. You tried to make your stand. You never get through. Perhaps you did, but they just didn't see your way as you did, because they thought their years of experience means much more than what the-you-now think.
Perhaps they are just as afraid.
But it gets really tiring. The bugging feeling of restraint.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Thursday, Apr. 23, 2009 - 10:43 p.m.]
= gotta survive!!! =
I wonder what's happening.
Things have started moving.. perhaps what's done, done.
Salvage? What's there to?
Besides, it's not like anyone else would buy the side of this little story turned sour. hurhur.
Meanwhile I shall continue to sit in the shadows.. until someone, anyone tells me anything. Good things never spread fast, or not as fast as its polar opposite.
Besides, I've got quite a great deal of things on hand to deal with.. it's looking kind of bad at the moment. Plus all the appointments made months ago.. it's not too nice to postpone it any further, ain't it?
Gotta get through this, really.
No matter what.
I wonder why unofficial graduation throws everyone in further disarray.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Thursday, Apr. 23, 2009 - 6:39 p.m.]
= yada yada! =
yada yada yada yada yada..
Tired.
yada yada yada yada yada..
Others recommended it, but it's not necessarily good.
yada yada yada yada yada..
Wealth of information don't mean anything. Meaningful speck of information means much more.
yada yada yada yada yada..
The room gets messier the more I packed!!!
yada yada yada yada yada..
Get this! Do this! Plan this! Details please! Check please! Go plan ok? Help ok? You let me know ok? Come and have your meal! Come for teabreak!
yada yada yada yada yada yada yada.......
yada yada yada yada yada..
Message ____ ok. Ask ____ ok.
yada yada yada yada yada..
Why are you lagging??
yada yada yada yada yada..
Let's meet on ....
yada yada yada yada yada..
I wouldn't mind being busy doing nothing, for a short while. (I can't stand playing/ movie-ing/ rotting for a few days straight. That would be too decadent.)
yada yada yada yada yada yada yada....... How little things seemed to get more on your nerves.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Thursday, Apr. 23, 2009 - 4:30 p.m.]
= Eason & SID. =
Their songs' therapeutic effects never fails.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Wednesday, Apr. 22, 2009 - 5:35 p.m.]
= Drained. =
1.5 hours zapped 3 hours of my life.
=S
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Tuesday, Apr. 14, 2009 - 6:59 p.m.]
= Random. =
Language is power!
In more ways than one.
hahZ.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, Apr. 12, 2009 - 11:48 p.m.]
= Continued Disgruntledness. =
Now that the *ahemZ* bins doesn't overflow unglamorously after every weekend (much to the disgust & bizarrement of us -- every week?!?), we have a new problem on hand --
Diminished supply of toilet paper in every single toilet there is on level 6 as the week is ending. (Level 5 inclusive sometimes)
argghhhhZ. What and why is this happening?!?!?
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Saturday, Apr. 11, 2009 - 10:41 p.m.]
= Impermanence, time, possible selves. =
Whenever I came out of the bathroom, it always felt as though an eternity has passed. The view outside that door seems to differ so much from the one I closed after me just now, sometimes unrecognisable. Perhaps, it had really been another world altogether, just a door's difference. As with each opening and closing of doors, entering and leaving that particular point in time, I will be emerging as another of my possible selves at the various infinite timelines, and re-emerging, only as a variant from the infinitely multiplying timelines, never returning to the one whom "you" left behind the door.
In that mere 3300seconds,
a baby could have been born;
a masterpiece could have been produced;
a misunderstanding could have just been resolved;
a kind act could have been executed;
a heart could have just been touched;
a couple could have been made in heaven and reconciled on Earth;
a family could have just been reunited;
a person could have just found new meaning in his/her life;
a friend could have just been made;
a rose could have just wilted;
a leaf could have just fallen;
a shooting star could have just fallen;
a butterly's wings could have just flapped...
It's amazing how time is constantly changing us, tweaking our fates, changing the world, setting macro changes in motion with microtouches from its hands of time.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Friday, Apr. 10, 2009 - 11:26 p.m.]
= Wishes for better endings. =
After watching several ultra disappointing/ rushed/ cliche endings for the few anime^ that I've been catching for quite some time, let's hope the endings (which I've forestalled till 16/4/09) for my current 2 most favourite anime - Kuroshitsuji & KKM - WON'T disappoint me as well. :/
bahhhhhZ. So much for rewarding myself with anime after studying for a whole day, only to be disappointed. *sighZ*
^Mostly shoujo anime. Or maybe, those endings just didn't leave me satisfied (i.e. it wasn't that the anime wasn't good). But aaaahZ~ Knowing those were shoujo anime gave me hope for Kuroshitsuji & KKM's endings! heeZ~ :)
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Thursday, Apr. 09, 2009 - 11:11 p.m.]
= women? women.....??? =
It's often that I read emails that describes the horrors of women's purchasing behaviour, which never fail to amaze me. Do such things REALLY even happen??? Such irrational buying behaviour?? I always ask myself.
Well. To my utmost bewilderment & horror, I've finally met a real life example of a lady who did something that those emails said --
"Oh! You know what? Actually I don't need those 4 bottles of perfume that came in this package, I gave them to my friends. I bought this package because I want the shirt that comes with it! The shirt's design is nice right?"
Oh My God. - palm to forehead -
I will NEVER understand
that kind of mentality.
Or should I blame that on the evils of marketing? hehZ.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Thursday, Apr. 09, 2009 - 11:04 a.m.]
= Theories theories theories. =
Sometimes, all those theories just sound so nice and alluring.
Then you wonder whether real life application actually works as well as it says.
All but beautiful pictures painted on hindsight, with just a dab of reality embedded between the lines.
Well, not everyone has the ability to read between the lines.
Like "Hope".
"Hope" in reality, and the wonders that could be derived from "Hope", are entirely different things.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Monday, Apr. 06, 2009 - 1:44 p.m.]
= Synonyms. =
Cocooning v.s Hikikomori.
I only knew there was an English term to it after reading the MB textbook. hehZ.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Friday, Apr. 03, 2009 - 10:21 a.m.]
= Tuesday with Morrie - revisited III =
"It's very simple. As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed at twenty-two, you'd always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, it's also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it."
Yes, I said, but if aging were so valuable, why do people always say, "Oh, if I were young again." You never hear people say, "I wish I were sixty-five."
He smiled. "You know what that reflects? Unsatisfied lives. Unfulfilled lives. Lives that haven't found meaning. Because if you've found meaning in your life, you don't want to go back. You want to go forward. You want to see more, do more. You can't wait until sixty-five.
"Listen, you should know something. All younger people should know something. If you're always battling against getting older, you're always going to be unhappy, because it will happen anyhow."
~ Tuesdays with Morrie P118
Can't wait to get out of these vicious cycles. Of this life. Of this current life. And of subsequent lives.
Can't wait, to move on.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, Mar. 22, 2009 - 12:44 a.m.]
= yayZ~ :) =
KKM S3 Ep 35 (aka Ep 113) is FINALLY subbed after waiting for a month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yayayayZ~ :)
*happy happy*
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Wednesday, Mar. 18, 2009 - 8:57 p.m.]
= Apt!! =
Believe me, I'm not trying to rub salt into the wound, but this part is too apt to forgo posting this dialogue --
Kagami:
You came up with the idea, so take some responsibility with the scheduling, alright! ~ Lucky Star ep. 24
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Tuesday, Mar. 17, 2009 - 9:36 p.m.]
= Impermanence. =
The tidings of waves, the surge and fall of waves, every little second,
every drop of water, and difference is made to the universe.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Saturday, Mar. 14, 2009 - 12:02 p.m.]
= oopZ. =
ruiZ is working harder for her 3rd and 4th module, that she seems to be neglecting her 1st and 2nd module.
oopZ.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Wednesday, Mar. 11, 2009 - 4:44 p.m.]
= Suspect X. =
Rushing for movies must be a recent trend for me. hahZ.
Even though I prefer not to have 15 minutes of trailer before a movie, since I made sure I'll be punctual, but GV gave us the extra time to play around with it. =P
Just like how we played the "hopping on the train at 8.40pm at City Hall (not on purpose) to rush back to JP for the 9.10pm movie" game, plus a toilet break, yet missing merely 5 minutes of trailer.
And just like how today went --
Received the call at 12.45pm, confirmation to catch the earlier movie, and thus we both decided to make a rush for the 1pm movie, each from different locations. hahZ. =P
10 minutes later, I hopped onto 199 (even though it wasted time stopping at 4 traffic lights). -_-" & wasted some time at Subway waiting for the guy to put on his gloves
delicately. -_-"
Well, but not so lucky this time round, cos we missed 5 minutes of the movie. (Then I have to thank the movie cos the case didn't happen in that first few minutes of the movie. =P)
So even though I've missed 5 mins in either scenario, but this mere 5 mins is a world of difference in both scenario.
How amazing - despite having the same objective reality, the situation that we find ourselves in usually determines how we construe an event & come up with our own subjective reality, and decide whether it's important or not.
But anyway, it was total coincidence that my friends were mentioning it last Saturday. And my friend just gave me the Drama series for Galileo.
Anyway, Suspect X IS good. :)
Seemingly irrelevant scene, but it calls for your attention, and then, the "A-HA! I see!" afterthought when everything is revealed. That is really cool. All the suspense are played out right to the flavour.
BUT, somehow I feel as though it's missing some X factor.
Perhaps, in an attempt to portray Yukawa in more humane light, such as overturning the seemingly flawless & emotionless image, it seems to demean & diminish some other aspects of humanity. Or is it as Cognitive Psychologists say, we are actually not as rational as we think we are?
On a side note, wahahahZ, I love things with a little tweak of Mathematics. =P Four Colour Theorem, Maths Genius, Differentiation, what more is there? :)
Anyway, talk about coincidence. Met jc & jingZ after the movie, at JP, at the stairways nearest to Oasis!! hahZ. Amazing. Always met jc at surprising locations. hahZ. =P
"Disguising functions as geometry questions. You just need to change your perspective in solving it."
"What is harder? Inventing an unsolvable case, or solving one, for which there is only one answer?"
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, Mar. 08, 2009 - 8:29 p.m.]
= HK!!! =
Should I go HK again? Alone?
The airfare from J.s. is damn cheap!!!
Or anyone wanna go along with me?? :)
I'm looking at the timing between 11 - 14 May. :)
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Sunday, Mar. 08, 2009 - 12:50 a.m.]
= Empty. =
It felt exceedingly empty.
As though you've never lived.
Or that, you've lived through this millions of times.
Has one ever really transcended it all?
Sometimes you ask yourself, why do you go all the way to do something?
When was the last time you've even really had a connection with anyone?
No one.
Not even your closest kins too.
If you've given up everything, it would have been easy?
Besides, you'll never leave a mark anywhere, anyhow.
And so, does that gives one the reason to stop getting to know more people?
It felt lonely.
And way too empty beyond words.
It suddenly made me feel really small.
It's as though, you've never known anybody else other than yourself.
Or rather, you don't know who you are even.
Are you yourself, even yourself?
Are you sure you're the soul in this container in this world?
And so what if you've forged friendly ties with the other containers?
Did you really connect with what's inside -- the souls?
And it felt as though this experience has happened over million of times.
And then, did you even live your life properly?
And then, what's the end?
Where will you be heading?
Saying all the various goodbyes?
Scared.
Sometimes I'm scared of such things, where there are no answers.
Perhaps, I'm regretting for not having had really connect with the various other individuals, and it left me feeling really lonely.
I do want to make an impact.
No matter how small.
~ * ~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. :) ~ * ~
[Saturday, Mar. 07, 2009 - 1:37 a.m.]
= Spring Cleaning. =
Just in the mood for a little spring cleaning. :)
Too lazy to search for a new blogskin, and I'm still pretty satisfied with the current one, so some things gotta go in this current layout.
Feel free to click "Previous" to read entries I've written before this entry. :)
And oh, I'll still continue to frequent your blogs even though I've not exhibited them on this page. :)
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